Music=God

I don't what it's been, but lately I haven't had the same creative feeling that usually associates with these entries. So I apologize in advance, my faithful readers for this sub-par writing

I've discussed my love of music in this blog before. And then I couldn't get the right words for it. So I went to the music store, Exclusive Company, the only real music store left these days. And I picked up "The Replacements: All for Nothing, Nothing for All". Filled with this album are stories of various people's love of the band and there varrying reasons for it. And I began to think of the first time I saw certain bands live and the first time I listened to them. And however long this may turn out, I thought I might go through my favorite bands and discuss them.

Wilco:
I first listened to Wilco on a bus, my friend Jeff gave me his walkman and told me to listen to this band. They were rooted in country, but they'd blow my mind. Boy, was he right. From note one, I was emanormed with this band. The album was "Summerteeth" and every song seemed to have the difinitve purpose of changing my life. When I saw them live, I was fully in obsession. It was right before I was to go to college, and it was the hottest day of the year. The place wasn't air conditioned to any degree. Not so much as a fan was on. So as soon as you entered the place it was hot. Now imagine 2,000 more people in a small place. But I stood there, for almost 4 hours just listening to this band that had so much effected me.

Radiohead:
This is my favorite band, and there's a reason for it. The first I ever heard of Radiohead was "idioteque", and I found myself bopping my head and thinking "wow, how can something this fun and danceable have such great lyrics and have such an eery-ness about it?" It threw me for such a loop. And my friend told me to buy "OK Computer". I agreed and took it immediately home and played it alone in my room. It was a rare event that I could be alone in my room for a full hour without being bothered, but it happened. I remember being on the computer and just stopping what I was doing, and just sat there listening. It was this amazing feeling, listening to this album. I knew my life would never be the same after that. It's strange how music can do that, just throw your world upside-down. For those of you who haven't experienced it, you have no clue what the hell I'm talking about. For those of you who have, you have a slight smirk on your face, that says "yeah, I remember that". It was one of those albums that just does that. You throw out all your other musical tastes, that band that you can't live without suddenly seems like old news. You want more of this...it becomes a drug. A high you chase but never get again. And that's what I do, everyday is chase after that feeling. Looking always for a band that will just knock me on my ass. This month it's Teddy Geiger, but he's not it. The kid's got talent but he's not at that stage to make me feel something beyond me. The first time I saw Radiohead live, well, I'm not sure I could ever do it justice. But I will say that I felt like I was part of something that was going to change the face of the world, but it didn't....it just changed me. I will NEVER EVER forget the feeling after that show. The feeling of elation and wanting to dance through the streets of Chicago (which I actually did), waiting for our train to come and just talking to all the other people who just saw what I did. Like we witnessed the atom bomb, we just felt like it was so important.

Pearl Jam:
Single Video Theory? What's this? I remember asking myself looking through my brothers videos. So I pop it in, and my first favorite band (later to be pushed down to 2 by the previously spoken of Radiohead) had made it's impact. I watched this movie, about how Pearl Jam came to write their "return to glory" album Yield. And watching the way these guys played, and watching Eddie Veddar's singing and his intensity, it shook me to my core. I knew that this band was it, this was the band to take me through the rest of my life, the one to describe my every feeling and be there right along with me, feeling it. You only have to listen to Indifference once, and you'll see ever single thought of my high school life. This feeling of hopelessness, the feeling of being alone. This overwhelming feeling of wanted to do so much, but being able to do so little.
Here's the lyrics: Indifference

I don't know if I truly did myself any good on trying to explain the unexplainable...but I have to try. B/c someone has to know. You know, the funny thing is...I don't think I've told anybody why "Indifference" truly matters...and I won't here. B/c, in a way...you have to earn it.

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