Family Matters

There are pros and cons to everything, but perhaps the most complicated is the friendship/aquaintance pro/con study. Every friendship has peeks and valleys, but when do you cut one off completly? And some still, you can never cut off. Being in a fraternity adds to this. Any family situation makes it hard. What do you do when you have to see someone everyday, but you really don't want to? These are the people that know all these secrets about you, they know who you truly are and they have this special inside look. They can use this power to tell all your friends, the ones that you can keep secrets from. And then this protective wall is down, without your consent. It's hard to mantain the "badass" rep, when someone has seen you cry over a girl. Or it's hard to be "the sensitive guy" when you didn't care about a friend in need in the past. All these faults, these mistakes are put front and center in your life. And all those people you wouldn't let in, are suddenly asking personal questions, the answers already swirling around in their head. It's frustrating. I'd like to think it's helpful, but there's got to be order to these things. I can't just meet someone and tell them that I had this horrible childhood and all the details. It just doesn't work, but somehow I'm here...dealing with it.
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