I Wanna be a Kennedy...

I've dabbled a little into politics with this blog with the "protesting" post. And all I spoke of is the question of war, whether we need it or not and how it affects us so. Continuing in that same stream, I'd like to write down my thoughts on government in general.
My favorite current politician in office is Barak Obama. He is a senator from Illinois, who took office in January '05. The reason I like him so much is his true passion that he can change the world. He, like me, has a blog that he writes in on a regular basis. This blog, also like mine, is just a device to get truth out to the general public, as well as his positions on current affairs. When I first heard him speak at The Democratic National Convention in Boston, I became truly and deeply inspired in the government and politics. As millions of viewers looked upon this black, young man which most of the people had never heard of before, he spoke truthfully and almost bluntly about America's future and his dream for it. He never got angry, never frustrated, never tired, he instead got hopeful about America. And honestly, I don't know many people that can do that today. Read the whole thing @ This Site. If you read about his story, you'd think you were listening to someone talk about 50 Cent, or a death row prisoner. You'd never think that someone who grew up the way he did would end up being a senator, and have his name brought up as the potential first black President. I now know, although only slightly, what it must have felt like to listen to John F. Kennedy. I now know why so much hope and love was showered on that man. Barak Obama is cut from the same cloth. Everytime he speaks, you listen, because history could be happening at that very moment. I can't think of any politician who can offer that same thing. It's once in a generation, and for me to see it from the start is magical. It kills me to wait 6 more years for him to get a chance at Presidential election. America needs him badly and I fear what any other person would do. If you haven't gotten a chance to see what an amazing person Barak Obama truly is then please do. These website's will help: His Official Site
His Blog His unofficial site...with video of DNC speech

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The Ocean is for Dreamers

So, I went on Spring Break this last week. And I sat by the ocean a lot. And as I looked upon this vast body of water with nothingness surrounding it, I began to think. And I didn't stop for a very long time. I just kept thinking, and the sound and sight of this beautiful ocean was a perfect backdrop for that. The ocean is for dreamers, and if you are a dreamer it is the best setting to do so. There's something about that atmospere that just makes your mind open up to all the possibilities of your life. It's something I wish I could do more.

Unwell

Today's not good...I needed something else to come back to...I needed to take a permanent vacation from here. When you lose everything you have you have everything to win.

Time to start over
Time to be reborn
Walls closing in
Very tired
Very confused
Feeling trapped
Life turned 180 then 360
Too much at once
Today, I'm struggling
I'm not supposed to put any of this here, that's why I am

Backstab Lovesick Singalong

When the most important thing in your life betrays you, where do you go? Everyone has crutches, whether it be a girlfriend, a parent, or an organization. And what happens when that person/thing turns it's back on you or does something that you can't forgive? The feeling is terrible. You feel lost, alone, confused. It's strange how something you hold so dear to your life can become to shameful to think about. If your girlfriend cheats on you (don't worry mine didn't), you feel this complete sense of hopeless. Because when you were hurt or needed anyone, you turned to her. But now that person is the one causing you pain. It's almost unbearable. You look at them and see all the beauty they used to have, all the passion you felt towards them...but at the same time, they are now very ugly. So what do you do? Do you forgive them? Do you cut them loose? Either way, you're unhappy. You can't win. And because of this, you're stuck. When you have to choose between two hurts, which one do you choose?

I was very hurt by people I once thought of as the only people that truly cared about me. And I guess that it's not true. Has anyone truly cared? You might ask this to yourself a lot, because I do. I have ex-best friends and ex-girlfriends, strewn about...all failed in some way. I've had more people betray my trust then keep it. So what do I do, eternal optimist that I am? I keep trusting, only to get hurt again and again and again. That's life though, this series of dissapointments, one after the other. Until, maybe that slight chance that there will be someone or something that truly truly cares and will never let you down like that. That's why we keep going, that's why we get into a new relationships and new friendships, even with that terrible risk looming overhead. Because when you find that person, you are given true pure happiness. I just didn't realize it would happen to me this time.

"Why do we fall down? So that we learn to pick ourselves up again"
-Batman Begins

Everybody's Working for the Weekend...err payday

So I got a new job, at the Machine Shed. It's a country restraunt. Which is weird, because I hate food and country is exactly my thing. I should work at a place that has hip music and serves alcohol, but a job's a job. Which brings me to my point, jobs suck. Yes, I just did state the obvious. What isn't so obvious is that, not everyone hates there job. Or feels like quitting everyday. I don't think I've ever had a job that I didn't feel like quitting from day one. The only thing that keeps me going is that wonderful feeling of recieving a paycheck. You all know how it is. You get this piece of paper, and it means that for the next 24 hours, you are happy. A puppy could be hit by a semi, and you'd shrug it off, because...tonight you'll be able to go to the bar, or out to eat, or buy that sweater that every girl will love you in. That's why we do it. We work our asses off for a short period of bliss that follows the paycheck. Bills will get paid too of course, but I'm not the only person who could care less about bills. I guess that's it. That should hold over the faithful for now...I'll write a much better one very soon. Oh...and to my faithful readers, post a comment or something...to let me know you're there.

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